we created the rough ride, catered to the buff types,
now makin’ it real smooth, bankin’ for the chair rides,
armored drain dips, crushed granite,
flagstone, limestone; we just don’t quit.
Our first real spike trip last week.
Bastrop, second week: we weren’t a crew yet.
San Antonio, third week: learning to camp, although inside a house. No labor.
San Antonio, second round: although not sweeping puddles, work was very easy.
Reimer’s Ranch, fourteenth (?) week: We excel. We came seeking more time to work; we made good use of that time. It’s been a rough project, and it won’t get any easier until it’s not the project we’re working anymore. It’s easy to begin to think of one’s life as vestigial to E-corps because of how personally intense it is- physically, mentally, and socially.
What works for me is to remember that it’s a year-long commitment, and it’s a job. I can’t clean my room, but I know how to work when on the clock. Once I understand this, my fatigue becomes understanding; I use it as an indicator of what I’m truly capable of, and I am able to overcome many hindrances that seem insurmountable.
Such is life! I see how far I’ve come and that time stretches on; my weariness is apparently only fractional, because I’m still standing, right?